Deejay so great.

I am the type of person who builds a high wall upon herself when facing strangers. I don’t let my guard down easily. Dont get me wrong. Marunong naman ako makisama. I’m saying I don’t trust easily, and I don’t show my true colors in as early as few meetings. Few and very Rare “then- strangers” got to me easily and I guess I considered them lucky. haha.

When I learned the value of true friendship, I found it hard to harness the idea that “people come and go”. I thought it would never apply to me. But it did. And it just hit me hard today. I missed old friends. And it makes me sad to think that I could not do anything about it; that sometimes, no matter how much you try to grasp on things that you do not want to go away— the moments of fun that you just want to play on rewind over and over— if it’s meant to go, it would slip away and you cannot do anything about it. Because everything changes, and so do people.

I read a while ago that  ABS CBN is planning to make an adaptation of Twilight. There’s been an on-going petition over the net appealing to the fans to stop this horrendous idea of the stations’ plan of remake.

I signed, of course. Because I cannot stand the sight of Ravier Cruz playing the role of EDWARD CULLEN. it’s bad enough that the original movie got Pattinson for the role. I hate that they’re planning on copying something brilliant—again.

I also read one comment from a fan, suggesting that if ABS really insist on doing the re-make, they should name it Danag instead, the name of a blood sucking demon from the Philippines.

If that would be the case, maybe I would reconsider. Ravier Cruz would be best for the DaNAG alright. better yet if this demon could dance.

(bitter daw? inde ah! mamatay na bitter. ^^)

here is a picture of it.

Ravier cruz as this guy wouldnt be so bad ^^

OK. so I’m an admitted Twilight fan. what’s the fuss? it’s not like it’s such a big deal. To be clear, I don’t like the actors in the movie either (well except for Green); I just like the whole concept—of the book I mean. I just appreciate Meyer’s brilliance period.

People should succumb to saccharine romance sometimes. It’s handy when you try to find ways to make yourself sane from all the chaos.

Now that you’re enlightened, Please feel free to grant my wish this Christmas. It’s no biggie really.. Just a book from the Twilight Saga would do.OR if you are generous enough, The whole set of it would really make my Christmas.

lately, everything’s just screwed up.

lately, i almost felt like giving up–mostly on faith.

i hate to enumerate cos it wud only piss me off more.

but what the heck, il go with it anyway.

il make this fast.

i might not graduate due to unfortunate (and inconsiderate) circumstances.

i lost more than a thousand pesos.

i lost my certificate of matriculation which is basically my key to any transaction s i wil make at skul and having it recopied wud cost me about a couple of hundreds.

bf got injured and is not well.
all that within 2 days.

i wud like to believe that there MUST be some logical explanation behind all these. i wud like to believe that this is plain bad karma. and i would also like to believe that all these bad things wud eventually go away if i wish and pray for it hard enough. I admit my faults. I stray every now and then.. and redemption for all that would be great thank you.

the bottomline is this and only this:

if you feel like trash. people will treat you like trash.

if you feel pathetic, then you’re just as pathetic to them.

it’s all in how you really see and value yourself.

when all’s said and done,it will all come down on

how you make the best of what you already are

and how you manage to let people see that you’re not pathetic,

you’re not worthless and you are definitely not trash…

rather, you have to make them see that you don’t need anyone to tell you you’re  great to feel great…

cos u already know.

-my found journal

SEQUENCE ONE: That retard maniac

so i went to mass, and i decided to put on a dress and matched it with a pair of shorts. it looked good. in fact, it looked so good i had boys drooling over as i pass- and one took that phrase literally.

after mass, i was supposed to meet pao cos i agreed i would go with him to watch this MMA competition. I told him (since he was not replying) that i’ll wait and meet him at MCDO pateros instead. So i rode the jeepney and some friggin bastard came in and sat in front of me. he was a mean man from what i saw, he was strong built, with massive tattoos on his arm matched with a maniac looking face like he just got out of some prison. arrghh.

i forced myself to ignore his checking-what’s underneath-my-shorts with no hint of discretion whatsoever, besides the f*ck—i mean fact, that he’s been eyeing me ever since the time he got to his seat, he kept on wiggling his legs up and down nonstop and touching his crotch from time to time and then pausing to let out his tongue as if licking something. gross. yeah. it sent some shivers on me alright. that was enough for me to get out the jeep right away mindless of where i was being dropped off. that bastard had the nerve to follow me a stare as i was going off the darn jeep. bwisit.

A Coke light float does the trick

I did not intend to spend today. All I ever wanted was to have some break and that bastard ruined it for me. But i decided I could not let him get the best of my day. So I decided to buy some stress buster: a Coke Light Float Combo. Yum definitely an all time fave.  A little while later, Paolo came. Told him everything. He said I ought to be careful the next time. And we went off to Cubao for that MMA fight.

MMA. PMA. PNP?

It was one heck of a joy ride. Since no one was replying, Pao said we ought to take the bus to Cubao. Para daw mapagtanungan ung konduktor baka sakaling alam kung saan ang PMA. I asked him, what PMA stood for, He said he vaguely knew either.

“Philippine Military Academy ata yun” he said.

What do I know right? He told me to keep an eye on the road baka raw makita ko sakali ang PMA na yun. And so I did. But I didn’t come across anything but a PNP so I figured (and maybe so did the bus conductor, because he suggested we should get off from there) that must be it. We got to talk to two policemen, they said they did know the Philippine Military Academy but they are sure it’s not in Cubao.

The closest thing to what we described as a mix martial arts tournament was the Philippine Martial Arts daw. natawa ako bigla. un pala un, hehe. Well they told us to hop on to the train and get off at cubao station. when we finally got to Cubao, we haven’t had any luck. We did not find it, which landed us to Megamall to eat and watch a movie instead.

The Grave Diggers-Dancers pala.-pao

On the way to Mega mall, Paolo realized he was missing a hundred. Between the 2 of us pa naman he was the one who’s really eager to watch a movie, I had the feeling I was going to be tagged as ‘it’ tonight. I was taya with food, I was taya with movie. but its the company that mattered. ^^

The movie was ok in the beginning but got cornier and cornier in the end. Dominic Purcell was really disappointing. I did not expect he’d accept such role. It was cheesy and corny and everything in between. the special effects ruined it all for the movie.The story was predictable. Some scenes were funny—although they were not supposed to be. There are wide-eyed skeletons that had their jaws locked to a non-moving wide smile –and that you just have you just have to see it for yourself.

this day is imbyerna day. a little bitchy. a bit funny. and emotionally odd.

IMBYERnA DAY:

so i went to school and answered a mock employment test.  i think they did not call it ‘mock’ employment test for nothing.

oh it ‘mocked’ alright, it mocked the dimwit out of my sleeping mind that is.

see, i lack sleep  lately and today made no difference. but i still managed to come to school (although an hour late). the test was hard for me(contrary to what i told my clasmate after she said the test was easy). cos wala ako sa wisho(dunno how to spelit. biteme). well anyway, to  make it short: i took the damn test and I didnt expect it would be under time pressure so i half-answered almost everything. demit.

A LITTLE BITCHY.
me and bolai (my clasmate) agreed to go to gym today, so we brought working clothes. i suggested we change at Jollibee mendiola to make it less of a hassle before we ride the jeep. she agreed. we went to the cr, and no one’s there but us and a girl. 3 of us went inside the only 3 cubicles there,

within seconds, i heard girls in groups coming in. of course i know they’re there to pee and i also know they are waiting for their turn, so i made the effort to change clothes FAST. but then this GURL, kept on banging my cubicle door. stupid. as if it’s not obvious that it’s  occupied. a little while after,i finally heard her say: MISS PAKIDALIAN LANG KASI MAY MGA TAO PA DITO. thanks to goodtiming, ryt after her sentence finished, i opened the door, throw my most devilish stare i cud ever muster at her and strut my way out the door. i waited outside for bolai– and  her.  when she  got out, i couldnt  help but say : ANG Taba TABA naman" and she shot a stare back at me and i just grinned ever so coyly. beats her fat ass. haha

A BIT funnY
i happen to regain my mojo. im feeling humor again i guess.  i don’t know what came over me but i started texting my boyfriend pick-up lines so corny i still laugh when i deliver it:

" Gymboy nakakatakot ang multo diba? pero mas nakakatakot pag nawala ka sa buhay ko."

"Gymboy taga Jamaica ka ba? kasi Ja’maican me crazy!"

"GYmboy, di tayo tao, hindi rin tayo hayop, Bagay tau gymboy, bagay."

amp. haha. see? now ur smilin.

EMOTIONALLY ODD.
prior to the funny mode. some serious spirit came over me that made me tell my bf things i don’t usually say. we haven’t been together for a while, with things keeping us busy.

i understand that. and he said its ok since there’d be lots of time for us to spend together since we won’t part anyway.

it was unusual for me to go mushy all over but i had the urge to say that i miss his company and his stories yadda yadda yadda.. i told him that i thought about cherishing everyday as if it was the last cos there are some things we rili don’t have control of.. like death and stuffs like that.

it made him think. and he agreed.

It was one rainy birthday but i was still happy at the end of the day cos i got tons of people hu didnt fail to grit me and wish me for a happy one.

it just kinda warms me wen i think that friends still care to greet and remember after a looong time of not being able to see each other.

i love it that my family cared enough to make me banners and stuff at the house although twas written at the back of a  calendar leaf. haha

i love it that paolo was sweet enough to buy me a preppy dress and lied all about buying a present(i knew it all along!) just so we could both convince ourselves that i had a ’surprise’  for my brthday.haha

true enough. i felt ‘harts all over the world’ that night.

tnx s lhat ng bumati! it meant a lot! muamua

gymboi> labyu! tnx sa dressy its so pretty like meey haha amp mua… :p

id like to qoute this. it’s just so nice. said by Iris (Kate Winslet) from the movie The Holiday:

"what i’m tryin’ to say is that i understand feelings

as small and as insignificant and humanly as

possible… and how it could actually ache in places

that you didn’t know you had inside you.

and it doesn’t matter how many haircuts you get, or

how many gyms you join, or how many glasses of

chordannay you drink with your girlfriends, you still

go to bed every night going into every detail and

wonder what you did wrong or how you could’ve

misunderstood.

And how in the hell for that brief

moment you could think that you were that happy, and

sometimes you’d even convince yourself that he’ll see

the light and show up at your door.

And after all that, however long ‘all that’ may be,

you’ll meet someone new, and you’ll meet people who’ll

make you feel worthwhile again, and the little pieces

of your soul will finally come back and all that fuzzy

stuff, those years of your life that you wasted,

that would eventually begin to fade. "
   
    -IRIS, The Holiday

OFTEN

i have resolutions this year that i am hoping not to break.
i resolved that i have to write my blogs often–everyday if i could.
i just feel that it’s just proper that i practice my skills in writing (whether i like it or not) if ever i want to be successful.

another resolution would be, to not be a kill joy. i don’t like going out that much though i never ran out of friends who always invite me to go to parties and stuffs like that. i think it’s about time i learn how to have some fun–often.

resolution number 3: to be more confident. about myself and the things i do. i found it funny, i had that confidence before in so many circumstances but somehow along the way, i stupidly let it slip away. I lost my mojo. And now’s the time to bring it back.

so that’s about my new year’s resolution that i beg myself not to break. sabi nga ni gymboy new year na daw kaya magabago nadaw me. harhar

NEW YEAR BATIAN PORTION.

christmas and new year came and i was guilty of not being able to greet ALL of my friends through text. mantakin mong globe at sun at smart pa ung iba. eh sun lang ako unlimited. hehe. ang hirap mag unli sa globe. kaya ayun. konti lang nabati ko. (sorry naman, merri christmas at happy nu yr narin. hehe)

mejo natawa ako sa mga pag bati ng mga journ nung new year’s eve. no offense or whatsoever, i was just amused that
they didn’t just settle for a simple "happy new year".. meron pa ‘kong nabasang mga words ud seldom hear. but it’s all good though. it just goes to show they don’t waste their tuition fee. i mean, "we" don’t waste our tuition fees. hehe

I CLEANED MY ROOM
so there was this one night that i was about to go to sleep and then some icky mouse crawled out underneath my bed towards the door. but he couldn’t get out ‘cos the door was oredi locked. nakakainis. i even had goosebumps. i hate mice. i hate rats. demit. i hate anything that crawls! arrggh.

i actually had second thoughts on cleaning the underneath of my bed alone,  (’cos the last thing i would wana happen is me touching a mouse while i’m cleaning) but i did it anyway. i just don’t wanna start my new year with a dirty room.

i started cleaning in the afternoon and finished in time for dinner.
MAYOMA! indi niyo na ikakahiya na kaibigan nyo ko! malinis na kwarto ko.. hehe